Jocelyn ordered Ketchup Chips and gave me 6 bags of them so I will be eating them for a while but they are so yummy so its okay. Plus it takes the place of all those sweets I am still not eating.
I found out I lost weight since last summer. I put on some shorts that I had and they barely stayed up. I don't really trust anything that gives me my weight but if the scale is correct im down to 115.6 which is a few pounds less than my ideal weight so yay for having room to gain weight.
So in addition to the diet I have gone on, I am working on making other changes in my life. I am trying to get better with scripture study and read every night before I hit the sack. I have faith that I will be blessed for reading in many different ways including receiving the peace I constantly need in life right now. I am also trying to better my other gospel study in other ways to. I am currently reading the Handbook the church put on on teaching. Its so amazing yet so intimidating because one I know it I will be held to it. And one of the things I have been running into a lot the last week is how I need to live my life based on the principles that I teach. So I am trying to make changes based on that too. I am working on what type of books, movies, and television shows I watch and on what I allow myself to be around. I wanted to decrease the swearing that I live around sometimes. Not that I swear but others do around me and when it starts showing up in your dreams, you know you are around it too much. I want to learn to be more faithful, hopefully, and happy. The Lord will not bless me when I ask him if I have doubt that he will do it.
If everything works out fine, I will be going to the temple tonight. Its been a while since I have been so I am really looking forward to it. Jon was sick last night so I did not get to hang out with him much but instead of using my time wisely and going to the gym I went home and chilled. The benefit was that I got to get to bed early so I could go to work early. So today I am leaving work even earlier to not only make it to the temple but to also get to the gym because I need to get better about going to the gym.
I have so many things that I am and need to work on. Kind of crazy but since I am determined to be successful in my goals for once, I am excited (though I probably say that every time). Hopefully I succeed, at least in some of them. Often times I feel like I am not good enough in anything I do, especially teaching, so hopefully working towards improving myself will help me feel a bit better about myself. Or maybe I will just judge myself more harshly. Who knows. At the very least hopefully I will gain more confidence in certain areas of my life like the gospel so I wont be so shy about talking about it.
Anyways today I learned a new fact. Aloe vera is really good for the hair. Who could have known. This is a short summary of the benefits and methods you can use. I am tempted to try it just to keep my hair healthy, not because I am scared about hair loss.
I went with Jon and Jocelyn to Annapolis this past weekend. It was so beautiful outside. None of us had been before and I am so glad we made it up there. The water was gorgeous, the boats were amazing, and it was so nice to have somewhere to walk around. And it did not hurt that the town was so pretty with its old buildings. We also got the opportunity to visit the Navy Academy. So cool! We ate lunch at Chick and Ruths Delly . This place caught my interest as I was researching Annapolis because they do the Pledge of Allegiance there every morning. We did not make it for that but any please that does it deserves my money. Their milk shakes and chicken wings were amazing. While up in Annapolis we also got Carmel Apples (dream come true everytime) and fresh squeezed lemonade. We also got candy and by the end were all on sugar highs which we then proceeded to crash and burn from. I could not have asked for a better day though.
Enjoy the pictures below.
Did I ever tell you I love boats?
This is one of the pictures I took at the Navy Academy.
Ever since sophomore year of college I have an addiction to sweets and sugar. Before that it was just something I liked but thanks to my friend Claire who always stocked up on cookies and candy it went from something I like to something I needed. Every now and then I decide to go on a sugar diet where I cut out all sweets. I have decided its time for another major diet as I have not tried it since college and all the sugar I have been consuming is not making me feel any better about myself. So as of today I am on a no sweets Diet. I will be happy if I make it 2 weeks and ecstatic if I make it longer. Jon has decided to join in this journey so the best of luck to him while he tries it out for the first time.
Susan Boyle is a prime reason you should never judge a book by its cover. Nobody expected her to be amazing and she was not only amazing, she was extraordinary. I wish her all the best of luck and hope that someday American Idol can get as good as Britians Got Talent.
of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you."
As you might have been able to tell from you blog, I have been going through a hard time and have been getting depressed. And though it has not gotten any easier, today I can say I truly am Happy.
First I know that I am loved by many. Even when I feel alone I know that my Savior is thinking of me and will help me along. I know that if I lead my life as the Lord would wish me to I will not fail. I need to hold on to my faith and have hope. I will get through this. I have been reading conference talks this week because I fell asleep through half of conference. I love the following quote:
He who notes the fall of a sparrow surely hears the pleadings of our hearts." - From President Monson's talk "Be Your Best Self"
I don't know what is going to happen in my life but I can be rest assured that if I am walking the straight and narrow path I will be make it where I need to go.
Also I having been laughing so much lately. I have allowed myself to indulge in many hilarious things these last few days. And it has helped. When spirits are down, just find something to laugh at. It always helps.
Red Skeleton had it right when he said "No matter what your heartache may be, laughing helps you forget it for a few seconds."
That brilliant quote of course comes from Tony from NCIS.
My grievances for today:
1. Spend way too much money at the dentist. Way more than I thought I would. What is insurance for again? Ive gotta call them up and see if they will cover more. Perhaps the dentist just screwed up. 2. Its raining again. 3. I had this lame dream where I basically relived 28 Days Later. Well more like same theme, different circumstances. I finally woke myself up because the dream was going no where and I was bound to become a zombie eventually, mainly thanks to And all the dumb people in my dream. 4. I need to eat but my mouth is numb. And now my mouth is beginning to un numb itself and it tingles sooo much. I sounded like an idiot on the phone. I cant talk very well with a numb mouth. 5. Did I mention all the money spent today on my mouth...well I'm mentioning it again. 6. Its become increasingly easier to be depressed and sad and impatient and its sooo annoying. I just don't know what to do with myself. 7. Why has my boss not talked to me for 3 weeks? How am I suppose to do my work? 8. I am cold, so cold.
The good news is this past weekend was pretty fun. I finally gotta see Jon more because he was not busy with work. We took a walk and saw Taken Friday. Great movie by the way. Saturday we went into D.C. with Brooke and Scott and though the cherry blossoms were almost all dead and we almost missed the fireworks it was still so fun. Beautiful weather. Sunday was Easter. I taught Relief Society than hung out with Jon and the Family the rest of the day. Dinner was great, we took a very long walk, and I surprised Jon with an Easter Basket. I love surprising people.
Yesterday was 24 and it about made me kill myself. So depressing. K it was not that bad but, so as not to spoil it, lets just say that there were a lot of surprises and not good surprises.
There are 5 houses sitting next to each other, each with a different color, occupied by 5 guys, each from a different country, and with a favorite drink, cigarette, and pet. Here are the facts:
The British occupies the red house. The Swedish owns a dog. The Danish drinks tea. The green house is on the left of the white house. The owner of the green house drinks coffee. The person who smokes "Pall Mall" owns a bird. The owner of the yellow house smokes "Dunhill". The owner of the middle house drinks milk. The Norwegian occupies the 1st house. The person who smokes "Blend" lives next door to the person who owns a cat. The person who owns a horse live next door to the person who smokes "Dunhill". The person who smokes "Blue Master" drinks beer. The German smokes "Prince". The Norwegian lives next door to the blue house. The person who smokes "Blend" lives next door to the person who drinks water.
The question is: Who owns the fish?
Quotes from NCIS Season 3:
Tony: Tell her what you do the rest of the time, heh, Probie. McGee: That's not TV. Tony: He pretends to be a fairy in an online computer game. McGee: It's an Elf Lord. Tony: Whatever.
Tony: That guy dates supermodels? Ziva: They're shallow, he's wealthy. It's a perfect match. ...Isn't your family wealthy? Tony: That's different. Ziva: Why? Tony: My dad cut me off when I was twelve. Had to earn all my dates the old fashioned way. Ziva: Begging?
Ziva: This woman is such a turd! Tony: A what?! Ziva: A geek, yes? Tony: Oh you mean nerd.
Jimmy: Who would sit on an explosive? Ducky: Someone who didn't know they were sitting on the explosive Jimmy: Of course Ducky: Did it myself once. No, twice. First time I was young. Second time foolish. Jimmy: Why were you sitting on an explosive Doctor? Ducky: I just told you. I was young and foolish. Haven't you been listening.
Tony: Abby! Front and Center. You too, Ziva. Let's go! I know what happened. (Abby and Ziva both start to talk). Hey! If there's going to be any slapping on this team, I'll do it. Clear? Good. Now shake hands. Shake. (They shake reluctantly.) There we go. That wasn't so tough, was it? Now how about a little hug? Big Buddy hug. Come on. (They hug). Now a deep tongue kiss. (They both hit Tony). Now we feel better. (has been slightly edited for content)
I will have to come up with a list of my favorite quotes sometime. This show comes highly recommended from me.
Love These Videos
I love the videos the church has begun putting out and this is one of my favorites!!!
Connie Talbot amazes me. Loved Paul Potts too!!! I wish I had such talent with music. They have been greatly blessed and will greatly bless others with their talent. These videos make me cry half the time so beware.
Damon Scott is just hilariously awesome.
I used to watch this as a kid. I loved staying home from school so I could see this. As well as Ghost Writers and Are you Afraid of the Dark.
This video is for the slightly immature crowd which I apparently fit into because I think its hilarious.
Is it wrong to wish my life was like Lauren's on the Hills. Is it wrong to envy her life, even the drama she has. She seems to have enough friends to not end up bored at home very often, she is given the choice to revamp her relationship with her ex best friend, and it never hurts that she gets a huge party thrown for her on a casino boat. Plus it never hurts to be that good looking or to be surrounded by good looking people and have a closet full of nice clothes. Perhaps I would be sick of her life, just as I am a bit sick of mine, if I were her. But since I don't know if that would be the case, I wish I was Lauren on the Hills. Anyways the reason premier rocked and I can't wait for the rest of the season.
I am in need of some excitement in my life, but not bad excitement. I am not sure I can deal with any more depressing things happening. I already feel too depressed. I need something to change, something new to happen, or something to look forward to.
My new goal in life is to be happy come what may because I am completely failing at it. I want to depend on people less and not allow my emotions to be affected by others so much. I am sure it has been my goal before and I am sure I failed at it but it is going to be my goal again and hopefully I will be successful at it this time.
K that song just happened to be on at this moment on Pandora and I happen to love it and that line happens to describe exactly how I feel right now. But thats not the point of this blog actually. The point is to ask a few questions
1. Why do guys check me out when they are on dates with other girls? 2. Why is it awkward running into old friends? 3. Why do I no longer know how to entertain myself? 4. Why are my friends so good to me when I am such a sucky friend? 5. Why do people swear so much? 6. Why cant I get to bed even when I am exhausted? 7. Why do I spend so much time on facebook? 8. Why was everyone dressed up tonight? Did I miss something? 9. Why am I not good at developing friendships with girls? 10. Why did feel the need to come up with ten questions and not leave the list at 4?
Anyways life is strange for me right now. But I know that relying on the Lord can get me threw anything and everything and will bring me peace so Amen for that. And for that simple peace of knowledge I am grateful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am just sad I could not stay awake during the second session of conference. I will have to read the talks when they are published.
Work has been pretty slow so I have been able to catch up on NCIS. Love that show. The character development is so clever and funny. Tony and Abbey are the best ever and the jokes are so hilarious. I highly recommend that show. But sometimes I feel bad not doing a lot at work. I wish I had more training so I could do more for the company but I don't and my boss has a bad habit of not answering his phone which doesn't help me and hes been out of the country for a long time. But hopefully everything will work out and maybe I will get trained when he gets back into the country. Or maybe I will find out I'm working for some drug dealer or some other illegal business. That would be kind of cool. Or maybe my boss is a spy? Just think of all the possibilities....
